Always Beautiful (13 page)

He pressed his hips against mine carefully and I could feel how hard he was against my center. A gasp mixed with a moan escaped my throat and I closed my eyes. Zeppelin’s other hand snaked into my hair behind my head and he tilted it up, brushing his lips against mine. I immediately parted my lips and wrapped my arms around his neck. He licked my bottom lip before gliding his tongue against mine.

His lips drew back and traveled across my cheek to my ear where he nibbled my lobe gently and let out a soft moan. I lifted my hips, feeling the heat pool low in my belly. It created a magnificent friction as I moved against his body.

“Oh Angel, you’re going to make me come undone.” Zeppelin groaned as he pressed himself in to me harder. His hand left my thigh and slid to the hem of my shirt, where he began pushing it up my heated skin. His palm lay flat against my ribs as it traveled slowly up toward my bra. He cupped my breast softly and I let out a moan.

I moved my trembling hands to the front of his shirt and began undoing the buttons. It didn’t take long to have it completely removed. I took in Zeppelin’s smooth chest, the piercing, his taught abs and the script tattoo along his ribcage. I ran my hands along his stomach and up. I remembered what he had said last Saturday about how I could touch him and bite him and scratch him a little if I wanted. I ran my thumb roughly across the barbell in his nipple and he sucked in a shaky breath. I smiled to myself knowing now that he liked it and I wasn’t hurting him.

Zeppelin’s lips moved back to mine and I let my tongue run against his lower lip slowly before pulling it in to my mouth between my teeth. I gently bit down and heard a rumble in Zeppelin’s chest. “Fuck.” He growled as he pulled away from me. His blue eyes pinned me. “Damn baby, I don’t know if I can stop this. You’ve got me hard as a fucking rock right now.” He said. Hearing his words, butterflies expanded in my belly. This was it. I either needed to stop this right now or go all the way.

“I can feel it Zeppelin.” I took a shallow breath. “I feel how hard you are and I want it. I want you…inside me.” Caught up in the moment, feeling that recklessness that we had talked about earlier, I decided that this was something that I not only wanted but felt like I needed. I was totally nervous. I was scared to lose my virginity because I didn’t want to be in pain. But the thought of stopping right now, it hurt me more. I made the choice to just go for it. Somehow I knew deep down that it wasn’t something I could ever regret. I was also incredibly thankful for the fact that I had been on birth control for years and didn’t need to worry about getting pregnant.

Zeppelin’s eyelids lowered and he let out an unsteady breath. “Lucky…You don’t have to…” He began to pull away from me. He sat back on his heels between my legs and ran a hand through his hair as he closed his eyes. “I know I don’t have to. I want to Zeppelin.
Please
don’t stop.” I breathed. His eyes opened and he cocked a brow. “You’re begging for me?” He asked in a growl. I bit my lip and nodded slowly. “I need you Zeppelin, so bad. I want you right now.” I told him in a husky voice. I was surprised at this new found boldness, but I kind of liked it. It felt good to just let the emotions and feelings take over.

In an instant, Zeppelin was on top of me again and devouring my mouth with his own. “Damn baby, your voice alone could get me off.” He said between kisses. “You sure you want this, me, here?” He asked. “Yes, please Zeppelin.” Something came over him in that moment and he pulled my shirt off quickly. Once it was removed, his eyes swept over me before meeting my eyes again. He hovered over my body on his knees and trailed his fingers along my collar bone down to my left breast. I moaned as he squeezed gently and slid his thumb back and forth over the fabric of my bra.

My hands slid up his tattooed arms to his biceps were I dug my nails in. I felt Zeppelin shudder before he lowered his head to my chest and slid his hand to my back, unclasping my bra. Pulling the fabric away from my skin, he began placing kisses all over my naked chest. His tongue swept over my nipple and I felt a flood of warmth in my core. One of his hands worked the opposite breast while his other traveled to the waistband of my leggings and dipped into them. His fingers ran over my center and I gasped. Zeppelin lifted his head to look at me.

“I need to be inside you.” He panted. “Yes.” I managed to say. He pulled back from me again and began removing my sandals from my feet. After that, he kicked off his own shoes and socks. His hands went to my hips and began to slide my leggings down along with my underwear. I lifted to help him remove my clothing and then sat up. I was sitting on a quilt in the middle of an open viewpoint off the highway naked. This was so unlike me. It was dangerous and careless, but ultimately I had never felt more alive.

Maybe it was the adrenaline coursing through me and the excitement of something new, but I didn’t want to stop. I was eager to feel every part of Zeppelin. I began to work the belt around his waist and then I undid the top button of his pants. His chest was rising and falling rapidly and his hands were clenched at his sides. I looked up at him through my lashes.

“Do you want this Zeppelin?” I asked softly. He seemed just as nervous as I was. I watched his throat move as he swallowed and then spoke in a gruff voice. “Yeah Angel, I’m not sure I’ve ever wanted anything more.” His words hit me in my hammering heart. He’d never wanted anything more than me? My hands were shaky as I continued to look up at him while pulling down the zipper. Zeppelin fisted a hand in my hair and bent down to kiss me passionately.

His other hand went to my lower back as he guided me slowly toward the quilt again. Once I was lying down, he began tugging his own pants off. I glanced down and saw that he was wearing a pair of red boxer briefs that were being removed as well. I bit my lip as I took in the sight of him. He was really hard and without a doubt well endowed. Zeppelin’s eyes moved to mine and then down to where I had just been looking. He let out a small laugh that was in no way comical.

“I’m not going to hurt you Angel, I promise.” He rested his forehead against mine. “You’re sure?” He asked. I nodded against him and swallowed my heart that was now mercilessly pounding in my throat. “I know you won’t hurt me on purpose. And yes, I’m sure.” I said quietly. Zeppelin slowly lowered his body on top of mine. His length slid against my center and I moaned loudly. His hand still wound in my hair, lifted my head so that he could crush his lips to mine. I felt my body building toward an intense release. My hands moved to his waist where I scratched against his hips as he moved against me.

Zeppelin pulled his lips away from me, his breathing was ragged and his body shook. Brushing his thumb along my jaw he said, “I’m not sure I can do this. You’re all I think about and God, I’ve imagined this more times than I can count.” He let out a slow breath. “What if I’m not good enough, what if I don’t make you feel good?”

I gaped at him. He wasn’t sure if
he
could make me feel good? He’d been doing a fine job of that since the day I met him. It was endearing to me how nervous he was, how unsure, even though I was the one that was a virgin. I shook my head and clutched his arms above his elbows.

“That’s not possible Zeppelin. You always make me feel good. Your touch…” I reached up and touched the hand that was along my jaw. “Your touch alone drives me crazy. And your kiss…It takes my breath away. I can’t promise that I’ll be good, but
you
will be good, when you’re with me you’re so good.” “Lucky, I need you so bad right now.” He said hoarsely. And then he began kissing me again, his tongue slid along my lower lip before entering my mouth. I melted in to him once again, my hands winding around his neck and pulling him closer to me.

“Jesus Lucky, you’re so warm, so wet.” He groaned as he slid against me. Zeppelin’s brow furrowed. “This is going to hurt for a minute Angel. God help me I don’t want to hurt you.” I nodded. “I know.” I took a deep breath and my muscles tensed as his hand reached between us. He wrapped his long fingers around his length and bit down on his bottom lip. Pressing against my core, I felt him begin to slide inside of me. Instinctively, I lifted my hips. Zeppelin tensed.

“Hold still baby,” He lowered his head and brushed his lips against mine. “Relax Angel.” He whispered, running a hand through my hair. I tried to calm down. My body was already quivering, my breath labored. Zeppelin pressed inside me once again a little further. He groaned and I felt more warmth pooling down below. I struggled to keep my hips still as he filled me. The fullness overtook the dull, needy ache. He pulled back, cradling my face with one hand and clutching my hip with the other.

“Look at me Angel.” He rasped. I opened my eyes and gazed in to his calming, Sapphire depths. He pressed further in, his eyes locked on mine. I winced at the sharp stab of pain and Zeppelin shuddered, biting his lower lip again as he breathed through his teeth. “You’re so tight.” He muttered.

He pulled out and then back in slowly so my body could adjust to him. The sensations of pleasure began to return slowly, much more heightened than before. We began to move together now and I closed my eyes as I wrapped a hand around his bicep and the other one tangled in his hair. I let this unfamiliar feeling take over. I had never experienced something so wonderfully amazing before.

Zeppelin moaned in my ear as his head fell to the crook of my neck. I felt myself climbing higher as he moved faster. “Oh. My. God.” I muttered. “Are you enjoying yourself?” He asked. I felt his smile against my skin and then he began to nibble on my neck. “Mmm…” Was the only response I could mutter as I lifted my legs and wrapped them around his waist. Zeppelin groaned and began to kiss me fiercely.

Tugging my lip with his teeth, I squeezed my legs tightly around him and felt my heart race faster, my breaths come quicker and shorter. My entire body soared as I felt the release that I had been waiting for. I’m pretty sure at some point I was screaming his name, I think I did see stars and I wasn’t sure if it was the ones in the sky or not. Zeppelin pushed in to me once more and then his body stiffened and shook as he found his own release.

Panting heavily and body’s slick with sweat, Zeppelin collapsed beside me. I laid there on my back, my hands resting on either side of my head. I felt relaxed and sated. Zeppelin let out a large breath and turned his head to look at me. “That was incredible Angel.” He said with a smile. I smiled back. “How do you feel?” He asked as he raised his head, propping it with his hand. “I feel perfect.” I replied. A crooked smile formed on his lips. “You
are
perfect.” He said as he leaned down to kiss my swollen lips.

Chapter 7

~June 2012~

The night of our first date was only the beginning for Zeppelin and me. We lay on that quilt for hours after getting dressed again. He held me tightly as we gazed at the star soaked sky talking and kissing. It was amazing, he was amazing. When he took me home early in the morning hours, he kissed me at the door. The kiss lit a fire in me again and without much hesitation, he decided to stay over. He slept beside me that night after making love for the second time. His strong, tattooed arms wound around me, keeping me close.

We were practically inseparable after that. If Zeppelin wasn’t coming over to hang out at Dixon’s, I would see him at my uncle’s shop helping out. There was another fight the following weekend, and I went with Hannah and Josh to watch. This time when he was done fighting, Zeppelin took me back to his place. He lived in a loft style apartment in Downtown Portland. It was modern and beautiful with hardwood floors and stainless steel appliances. I loved the windows and the view it had, though I didn’t see much of that view until later on.

The moment we reached his front door, he was grabbing me and kissing me. We had fallen into his bed, greedily stripping each other before having the most amazing and passionate time I had ever experienced. Everything with Zeppelin always seemed to be intensified. There was no doubt that we had an undeniable physical chemistry, but I liked to think that there was a mental connection as well.

There were some nights that I would go to his place and we would just cuddle on the couch while watching movies. We would talk about life and interests and our childhoods. Zeppelin and I weren’t raised that differently. We both had parents that were still together and that worked a lot. He told me about times when he would ride his bike to his friend’s house and they would ride to the park and play for hours in the summertime. One day when we were hanging out in the backyard at Dixon’s house, I asked him about one of his many tattoos.

We were lying out on an old blanket in the grass, me in a pair of shorts over my swimsuit and him in just shorts. I ran my finger along his side where the script tattoo flowed up his side. It read “Always Beautiful”. “Why did you get this tattoo?” I asked quietly as he laid on his back, his arms tucked behind his head and eyes closed. “You know how people say that life isn’t always beautiful?” He replied, opening his eyes to look at me. I nodded. “To me, I think that life
is
always beautiful. Things can suck sometimes and shit happens, but if you try hard enough, you find beauty in the ugly.”

I smiled at him and leaned my head to the tattoo placing a tender kiss over it. “That’s incredible.” I said. “I got this as a reminder that no matter what I face in life, it is and will always be beautiful. Kind of like you.” He winked and rolled over, pushing me on my back as he placed himself between my knees. “To me, you’re always beautiful.” He said before kissing me sweetly. He was always saying or doing sweet things that would give me butterflies and make my heart race.

Being with Zeppelin was as easy as breathing. I couldn’t explain why everything happened so fast and I didn’t question it. Nobody really questioned our new found relationship as a matter of fact. Hannah only insisted how happy she was for me and Dixon didn’t seem to mind at all that one of his good friends was spending time with me.

I had even told my parents about Zeppelin. We didn’t really have a title like boyfriend and girlfriend yet, so I said he was a new friend that I was dating. My mother questioned me on how much time we really spent together and if there was more to it. I had told her that we were just kind of seeing each other right now.