Dark Winter (2 page)

Thud.

A bone-smashing, lung-crushing impact on the deck of a small, wooden boat, bobbing on water the colour of ale.

His eyes, opening in painful stages, allow his dulled senses a glimpse of the disappearing ship. To feel the rolling, rocking motion of a too-small lifeboat in a giant ocean.

He is too tired to turn his memories into pictures, but as the cold envelops him and the moon seems to wink out, he has a vague memory of familiarity.

Of having done this before.

2.14 p.m., Holy Trinity Square. A fortnight until Christmas.

The air smells of snow. Tastes of it. That metallic tang; a sensation at the back of the throat. Cold and menthol. Coppery, perhaps.

McAvoy breathes deeply. Fills himself up with it. This chilly, complicated Yorkshire air, laced with the salt and spray of the coast; the smoke of the oil refineries; the burned cocoa of the chocolate factory; the pungency of the animal feed unloaded from the super-container at the docks this morning; the cigarettes and fried food of a people in decline, and a city on its arse.

Here.

Hull.

Home.

McAvoy glances at the sky, ribboned with ragged strips of cloud.

Cold as the grave.

He searches for the sun. Whips his head this way and that, trying to find the source of the bright, watery light that fills up this market square and darkens the glass of the coffee
shops and pubs which ring this bustling piazza. Smiles as he finds it, safe at the rear of the church, nailed to the sky like a brass plaque: obscured by the towering spire and its shroud of tarpaulin and scaffold.

‘Again, Daddy. Again.’

McAvoy glances down. Pulls a face at his son. ‘Sorry. Miles away.’ He raises the fork and deposits another portion of chocolate cake into the boy’s wide-open, grinning mouth. Watches him chew and swallow, then open his mouth again, like a baby chick awaiting a worm.

‘That’s what you are,’ laughs McAvoy, when it occurs to him that Finlay will find this description funny. ‘A baby bird asking for worms.’

‘Tweet tweet,’ laughs Finlay, flapping his arms like wings. ‘More worms.’

McAvoy laughs, and as he scrapes the last of the cake from the plate, he leans forward and kisses the boy’s head. Fin is wrapped up warm in bobble hat and fleece coat, so McAvoy is denied the delicious scent of his son’s shampooed hair. He’s tempted to whip off the hat and take a deep breath of the mown grass and honeycomb he associates with the boy’s shaggy red head, but it is bitterly cold here, outside the trendy coffee shop, with its silver tables and metal chairs, so he contents himself with tickling the lad under the chin and enjoying his smile.

‘When’s Mammy coming back?’ asks the boy, wiping his own face with the corner of a paper towel and licking his lips with a delightfully chocolate-smeared tongue.

‘Not long,’ replies McAvoy, instinctively glancing at his watch. ‘She’s getting prizes for Daddy.’

‘Prizes. What for?’

‘For being a good boy.’

‘Like me?’

‘Just like you.’

McAvoy leans in.

‘I’ve been really good. Father Christmas is bringing me loads of presents. Loads and loads and loads.’

McAvoy grins. His son is right. When Christmas comes, two weeks from now, Fin will find the equivalent of a month’s salary, wrapped and packaged, beneath the red tinsel and silver branches of the imitation tree. Half the living room of their nondescript new-build semi to the north of the city will be swamped with footballs, clothes and wrestling figures. They started shopping in June, just before Roisin discovered she was expecting again. They can’t afford what they’ve spent. Can’t afford the half of it, considering the expense the New Year will bring. But he knows what Christmas means to Roisin, and has given the credit card the hammering she deserves. She will find a garnet-and-platinum necklace in her own stocking on Christmas morning. A red leather jacket, sized for when she sheds the baby weight.
Sex and the City
DVDs. Tickets for the UB40 concert at Delamere Forest in March. She’ll squeal and make the noises he loves. Run to the mirror and try on the coat over her baggy T-shirt and swollen, pregnant belly. Fold her pretty, delicate face into smiles, then plaster him with kisses as she forgets that it is a day for children, and that their son has yet to open any of his presents.

McAvoy feels a sudden vibration next to his chest and removes the two slimline mobile phones that reside in his inside pocket. With a slight sensation of disappointment, he
realises the sound is coming from his personal phone. A message from Roisin.
You’re going to love what I’ve got you … Xxxx
. He smiles. Sends her back a collection of kisses. Hears his dad’s voice, calling him a soft shite. Shrugs it off.

‘Your mam’s silly,’ he says to Fin, and the boy nods solemnly.

‘Yes,’ he says. ‘She is.’

The mere thought of his wife is enough to make him smile. He has heard it said that to love truly is to care more for somebody else than you do for yourself. McAvoy dismisses the notion. He cares more for everybody else than he does for himself. He’d die for a stranger. His love for Roisin is as perfect and otherworldly as she is herself. Delicate, passionate, loyal, fearless … She keeps his heart safe for him.

McAvoy stares into space for a while. Looks at the church. He’s been inside it a few times. Has been inside most of Hull’s important buildings in the five years since he moved to the city. He and Roisin once saw a concert here; an hour-long set by the Cologne Philharmonic Orchestra. It had done little for him, but reduced his wife to happy tears. He’d sat and read the guidebook, clapping when prompted, pouring knowledge into his brain like a drink down a parched throat and occasionally lifting his head long enough to gaze at Roisin, wrapped up in scarf and denim jacket, wide-eyed as she became lost in the soaring strings that echoed, ghostly and majestic, from the high ceilings and vaulted columns of the church.

As the noise of the passing shoppers and nearby traffic drops to a sudden and peculiar hush, McAvoy hears the faint strains of a choirboy’s voice, floating across the square. The
song weaves through the pedestrians like string from a loom, causing heads to turn, footfall to slow, conversation to hush. It’s a warm, Christmassy moment. McAvoy sees smiles. Sees mouths opening to form vowels of pleasure and encouragement.

For a moment, McAvoy is tempted to take his son inside. To slide in at the back of the church and listen to the service. To sing ‘Once in Royal David’s City’ with his son’s hand in his and watch the candlelight flicker on the church walls. Fin had been fascinated when they had looked up from placing their order at the coffee shop till and seen the tail end of the procession of choirboys and clergy pass through the big ironstudded double wooden doors at the mouth of the church. McAvoy, embarrassed at his inadequacy, had not been able to explain the significance of the different robes, but Fin had found the colours intoxicating. ‘Why are there boys and girls?’ he’d asked, pointing at the choristers in their red pepper-pot cassocks and white ruffs. McAvoy had wished he could answer. He had been raised Catholic. Had never bothered to learn the different meanings of the costumes favoured by the Church of England.

McAvoy makes a mental note to remedy his inadequacy and turns his head to look in the direction from which he assumes Roisin will appear. He can’t see her among the milling shoppers, who are taking care on the slick cobbles that carpet this most historic part of town. Were this one of the nearby cities, York or Lincoln, the streets would be chock-a-block with tourists. But this is Hull. It’s the last stop before the sea, on the road to nowhere, and it’s falling to bloody pieces.

The tremble by his heart again. The fumble for the phones. It’s the work phone this time. The on-call phone. He feels a tightening in his stomach as he answers.

‘Detective Sergeant McAvoy. Serious and Organised Crime Unit.’ To say that still gives him a thrill.

‘Now then, Sarge. Just checking in.’ It’s Helen Tremberg, a tall, earnest detective constable who transferred over from Grimsby when she made the move from uniform a few months before.

‘Excellent. What have we got?’

‘Quiet one, given the time of year. City are playing away this weekend so all pretty basic stuff. Bit of a scrap off Beverley Road way but nobody wants to take it any further. Family party that got a bit out of control. Oh, the ACC asked if you’d give him a call when you have a moment.’

‘Yes?’ McAvoy tries to keep the squeak from his voice. ‘Any clue?’

‘Oh, I doubt it’s much to worry about. Said he wanted a favour. No screaming or anything. Didn’t use any rude words.’

They both give a little laugh at that. The Assistant Chief Constable is not a daunting man. Skinny, spry and softly spoken, he’s more of an accountant than a thief-taker; his most telling contribution to the local force being the introduction of a ‘data-sharing intranet matrix’ and a memo warning against the use of bad language during a visit to Priory Road station by Princess Anne.

‘Right. So. Nothing pressing?’

‘Sorry, Sarge. I wouldn’t even have called, but you asked to be notified …’

‘No, no. You did right.’

McAvoy hangs up with a sigh. His immediate boss, Acting Detective Superintendent Trish Pharaoh, is on a course this weekend. The station’s two detective inspectors are both off duty. Should anything major occur, he will be the senior officer on call, the one to take the reins. While he feels the familiar prickling of guilt in his belly at wishing for a set of circumstances that would spell misfortune and pain for some poor soul, he knows that such circumstances are inescapable. There will be crime. Same as there will be snow. It’s just a question of where it falls, and how deep.

A waitress appears, goose pimples on her bare forearms. She gives a good-natured scowl at McAvoy and his son. ‘You must be mad,’ she says, with exaggerated shivering.

‘I’m not mad,’ says Fin, indignant. ‘You’re mad.’

McAvoy smiles down at his son, but says his name chidingly, to warn him about being rude to grown-ups. ‘It’s a lovely day,’ he says, turning back to the waitress, who’s wearing a black skirt and T-shirt and looks to be in her early thirties.

‘They say it’ll snow,’ she says, clearing away the remnants of the chocolate cake, the glass of lemonade, the mug of hot chocolate that McAvoy had devoured in three burning, delicious gulps.

‘There’ll be a scattering today, but not much more. Maybe another day or two. Be a heavy fall. A good few inches at least.’

The waitress surveys him. This big, barrel-chested man in the designer double-breasted coat. Good-looking, even with the unruly hair and broad, farmer’s face. He must be an easy
six-foot-five, but there’s a gentleness about his movements, his gestures, that suggest he is afraid of his own size; as if constantly apprehensive that he will break something more fragile than himself. She can’t place his accent any more accurately than ‘posh’ and ‘Scottish’.

‘You a weatherman?’ she asks, smiling.

‘I grew up in the country,’ he replies. ‘You get a nose for these things.’

She grins at Fin and nods at his father. ‘Your dad got a nose for the weather?’

Fin regards her coolly. ‘We’re waiting for Mammy,’ he says.

‘Oh yes? And where’s Mammy?’

‘Getting prizes for Daddy.’

‘You been a good boy, have you?’ she asks McAvoy, and there’s a practised sauciness to her voice. She casts another glance over his well-muscled body, his thick, bullish neck, his round, square-jawed face, which, in this light, seems striped with the faintest of scars.

McAvoy smiles. ‘One tries,’ he says softly.

The waitress gives a last little grin then scurries back indoors.

McAvoy breathes out slowly. He plonks Fin back in his own chair and pulls out a notepad and a box of crayons from the recesses of the leather satchel at his feet. A man-bag, Roisin had called it when she’d presented him with the gift a few months before, along with the designer coat and trio of expensive suits. ‘Just trust me,’ she’d said, as she’d tugged down his old shiny black suit trousers and dragged his waterproofed hiking jacket from his hand. ‘Try it. Just let me dress you for a little while.’

He’d relented. Let her dress him. Carried the man-bag. Grown used to the coat, which was warm and kept the rain off, and spared him too many barbs about his unruly ginger hair.

When he insisted that clothes don’t make the man, she said: ‘When people see you, they need to see somebody to reckon with. Somebody with confidence. Somebody with style. It’s not as though you’re Columbo. You’re just badly dressed.’

And so Detective Sergeant Aector McAvoy had become a fashion victim. Turned up at the station that Monday morning to catcalls, wolf-whistles and a chorus of the
Rawhide
theme tune. For once, it had been good-natured banter. ‘You’re a scary-enough looking bugger at the best of times,’ DC Ben Nielsen had said, lounging against the custody suite wall as they waited for a suspected burglar to be brought down from the cells. ‘Now you’re looming in the doorway with a handbag. The poor sods don’t know whether they’re going to get shot or bummed. It confuses them. Stick with it.’

McAvoy likes Nielsen. He’s one of the half-dozen new faces brought in six months back by the brass to try and wipe out the stench of the bad old days. The era that had both made and cost McAvoy his name. Nailed him as the copper who cost a detective superintendent his job and sparked an internal investigation that scattered a crooked team of CID officers to the four winds. Who managed to glide through the whole thing without a blemish on his written record. He’s the copper who did for Doug Roper, the copper who nearly died out at the woods beneath the Humber Bridge, at the hands of a man whose crimes will never be known by anybody other
than a handful of senior officers who stitched his face up more expertly than the doctors at Hull Royal. He’s the copper who refused to take up the offer of an easy transfer to a cosy community station. Who now finds himself on a team that doesn’t trust him, working for a boss who doesn’t rate him, and trying to blend into the background while carrying a Samsonite satchel with adjustable straps and waterproof bloody pockets …