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Emerson immortalized his “treasure of a companion” in his famous essay “Friendship,” published in 1841:
We parry and fend the approach of our fellow-man by compliments, by gossip, by amusement, by affairs.... I knew a man who under a certain religious frenzy cast off this drapery, and spoke to the conscience
of every person he encountered, and that with great insight and beauty. At first, all men agreed he was mad. But persisting, he attained to the advantage of bringing every man of his acquaintance into true relations with him. ...
To stand in true relations with men in a false age is worth a fit of insanity, is it not?
Patient records at McLean are now more closely guarded than they
were thirty years ago, when the record room was open to all staff doctors and some valuable Sigmund Freud letters went missing. The diaries of therapeutic regimens, sometimes spanning decades and comprising hundreds of pages, make for fascinating reading. Some records, like that of Boston’s John Warren, are works of literature, as insightful and revealing of mid-nineteenth-century Boston as James Boswell’s diary is of Samuel Johnson’s London.
This John Warren was the son of the above-mentioned John Collins Warren and grand-nephew of the hero of Bunker Hill. Not only did John Collins Warren lead the unsuccessful subscription for the new hospital in 1810; he is also credited with first using ether as a medical anesthetic. A famous painting by Robert Hinckley depicts Dr. Warren operating with ether under the Bulfinch-designed dome at the Massachusetts General Hospital. To the surrounding doctors and gawkers, Warren memorably proclaimed: “Gentlemen! This is no humbug!”
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John Collins Warren had several sons, the eldest being the future McLean patient John. But the father favored the next-born, Mason, who followed in his footsteps and became a surgeon. Mason, however, proved to be sickly, and, not so surprisingly, his father’s regimen of purgings and archaic medicines did not do much to improve his health. The father often assigned his eldest son to care for the beloved younger brother, and during a therapeutic trip to Cuba, John Warren’s raucous and undisciplined behavior landed him in trouble with tavern keepers, prostitutes, and the local police. On his return in 1841, his father packed him off to McLean, where he was to spend the next thirty-four years of his life. John’s name was expunged from the family Bible; he had become an official nonperson. One modern psychiatrist who has reviewed Warren’s record notes dryly that if he was not crazy when he was admitted, he was certainly crazy by the time McLean was through with him.
Here is the log book entry for John Warren’s first night at McLean, April 19, 1841:
Admitted age 33; unmarried.
No business, nor property in his own right.
This gentleman is the eldest son of Dr. John C. Warren of Boston.
His history in one sense is soon told & he has been a true son of
Ishmael,
with “his hand against every man and every man’s hand against him.” Such has been his strange and erratic course of life, that it may safely be doubted whether he
ever did a sane action
. The only satisfactory explanation of life is he was
constitutionally insane
and
never recovered
.
To enumerate his peculiarities of thinking, feeling and acting would be to describe his whole life and therefore impossible. Naturally brilliant and active, he was never disposed to apply his mind. Impatient, restless, mischievous, yet no settled malice, disobedient to his parents, yet of kind and tender feelings. Fond of broils, fights, and daring deeds yet not intemperate and noisy.
He seemed determined to have his own way and succeeds by stern, daredevil manner with “actions suited” to his words. Was always in trouble, skulking about to avoid detection: chased by sheriffs for assaults, and debts: unhappy at home and shunned and detested abroad. Once
stabbed
a man and
fled
his
country
. While in Europe spent all the money his friends could furnish and all he could
borrow
and get on the Credit of his father. Of late has been boarding in the
American House
[now called the Parker House], living high, drinking Wine, Beer & Smoking Cigars, running up Bills at Tailors, Barbers, Livery stables, etc.
Yesterday was the first time that he ever discovered to his friends any
palpable
delusions. He then thought a
young lady
was
desperately
in
love
with him and
had sailed for Europe without disclosing it to him
. He also imagined he heard
screeches
and
cries
in the house where he was boarding and that he had
injured some one
, perhaps
his mother
. He also has the idea he was
pursued
by
enemies
[and] that he had been
poisoned
. Was
suspicious
,
wild & fearful
.
Warren’s first few months in confinement proved to be quite eventful, punctuated by manic episodes, paranoid outbursts, and even an escape attempt:
April 20
Slept but little during the night, and attempted to
injure
himself by
springing headforemost
from his bed onto the floor. Sprained his muscles about the neck and was prevented from further injury by his attendant.
 
April 21
In painful distress because he thinks he must have committed some
outrage
in the city. Full of delusions. Thinks he is accused of
murder
and
theft
, & other crimes.
 
June 15
Mother died. Was fearful he “should go distracted” did not know but “his conduct had killed her.” Could not weep. Went home to see her on condition of not [reprimanding] his father—could not keep his promise. Writes insane letters.
 
Aug. 2
Went to walk with a new attendant, decoyed him into the city. Went into a shop and made his escape. Took his razor with him but did not use it improperly.
 
Aug. 5
Was returned today by a constable—found him at
Nahant
, had driven about from place to place
chiefly in the night
.
 
Oct. 1
During the past month, has been more civil & quiet but his delusions are at times strong—hears false sounds, as of screams of females suffering and crying for help—thinks the superintendent said to him on blowing his nose, “those are dear blows”—thinks the viscid secretions of his mouth are purulent matter and is exceedingly alarmed.
 
Oct. 15
Treated the supervisor rudely—was put in his room and promised never to repeat it. Was surprised to find that anyone dared to lay hands upon him.
Oct. 20
Made an attack upon a fellow boarder because he started at him as he thought—threatened to strike with a chair was overcome by the other but not injured—is now removed to the W. Gallery. Lays it much to heart—can see no necessity for “such solitary confinement.”
 
Nov. 8
Today attended the Probate Court to defend himself from being put under Guardianship—exposed his delusions to the court—got angry—and in coming out to the street attempted to make his escape—was caught and returned but is yet civil.
 
Dec. 1
Much as formerly—attempted to make a key from the brass of his umbrella—Never very social—pretty civil—
aristocratic
.
Of course.
Warren’s file shows months on end with no entries or just a brief notation, “in status quo.” His demeanor remained unpredictable: He was at times the gentleman, “musing and playing his flute,” and at times he was impulsively violent, “[kicking] about the furniture & breaking the chairs.” He heard voices, he entertained delusions, and he acted strangely, wrapping his socks over his shoes in order, as he explained, “to prevent the strength from going out of his legs.” In 1843 and 1844, he believed whores were persecuting him and threw his chamber pot at them. He was denied the use of a knife and fork. When the trustees showed up for a visit, he complained that he was being abused by the attendant, who “excited his private parts by some magnetic influence.” He then demanded “his release on the ground he is perfectly sane.”
For the next several years, Warren fell into a routine. He was reclusive; every other afternoon, he walked into Charlestown with an attendant following a few feet behind him. He spent about $10 a month on “books, paper, clothing and eatables.” He also bought his own crockery because he believed the institutional plates and
cups were unclean. Warren could be an irascible customer, and some shopkeepers barred him from their premises. What is striking is the lack of recordable or noteworthy incidents and the frequent observation that Warren was faring quite well. Years went by without mention of a destructive incident:
Nov. 26, 1847
Has gone through the summer without any sickness.
 
April 2, 1848
Taking the past year together it has been a more comfortable one than he has ever passed since under the charge of the asylum.
 
Jan. 1852
There has been no change for several years.
 
Dec. 29, 1853
No change. Good health.
 
Oct. 2, 1860
The past year has been without incident or change.
 
May 30, 1861
As unsocial and determined to be exclusive as ever. Health uniformly good.
 
Nov. 20, 1863
Has had uninterrupted health since last date and there has been no change in his mental characteristics, or habits.
Nowhere in his record do we find the suggestion that he return to his family’s care. His family’s interest in him seems to have been negligible. In 1863, one of his brothers paid a call, “not having seen him for five or six years before.” The man thoughtfully left John some Tract and Temperance Societies publications. One
day in 1866, the warder noted that “he expressed a wish that ‘Dr. J. Mason Warren would come and take him out of here.’” There is no record of any further communication on this matter. Now almost twenty years into his stay, John was avoiding the trustees and timed his visits to Charlestown so he could be absent during their weekly sweeps through the asylum. Warren was slovenly and paid little attention to his appearance. He took wine daily and had a healthy appetite, but as time progressed, he ventured out of his room less and less. “Few of our household pursue a more uniform & unvaried life than he does and in none is there less change noticed,” we read. For years, the entries read as follows: “General health uniformly good.... General health good.... Idem.”
Two events of consequence occurred in the years before his death. First, he allowed his attendant to walk next to him rather than “several rods behind” during his occasional visits to Charlestown. And second, he started to manifest symptoms of a
folie de grandeur
. He said more than once that he owned Appleton, the ward where he was staying, and that “they would not be able to run it if he was not about to manage affairs.” In fairness, Warren had spent far more time at McLean than any of the three superintendents he knew.
In August 1875, in his sixty-seventh year, Warren fell sick with a painful cough. To alleviate his symptoms, he swallowed “medicinal” brandy with mustard powder on the side. He also imbibed essence of peppermint, spiked with morphine, to relieve pain. Over the course of several months, his health began to fail. On December 4, 1875, John Warren’s lengthy incarceration came to an end: “Sank quite rapidly during the night and died this morning a mere skeleton with nothing to keep it together but an indomitable will.”
The cause of death was an abscess of the right lung. John Warren had lived through the Civil War, the opening of the western frontier, and the era of the railroad on a tiny plot of land atop a hill in Charlestown, Massachusetts.
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