More Than Enough (21 page)

As I walked out to the kitchen, I spotted my keys from the night of Halley’s bachelorette party. I almost forgot that I had driven my car here. I could easily drive to the apartment. I mean my things were there. But he wasn’t even answering a text and last night he wasn’t home. Was he home now? And was he alone? Would he bring another woman home? The thought made me run back into the bathroom where I lost anything that happened to be in my stomach. I brushed my teeth one more time before walking back into the kitchen.

I didn’t see Trevor or Marcus but Halley was sitting at the table sipping on a coke.

“Hey sleepyhead how ya feeling?”

I offered a weak smile and replied, “I’m starving. But really I just feel like shit.”

“Make you a sandwich and relax.”

I grabbed everything to make a turkey sandwich and then a coke.
I carefully spread the mayonnaise on each slice before adding two pieces of turkey and one slice of cheese. I smiled as I looked at the one thing I could do right. There it looked perfect. I ate the sandwich in under two minutes. I didn’t realize how hungry I was until that first perfect bite.

“Thank you Halley. For last night. I’m so sorry to have kept you up. I hope Marcus wasn’t mad.”

She placed her hand on her hip while sitting and glared at me. “Don’t be sorry about anything Macy. I will do anything for you and you know that ok? Marcus wasn’t mad at all and if he were then he could kiss my ass.”

I cleaned up the little mess I made then Halley grabbed me by the hand and let me to the living room. I sat on her couch as she fumbled around her DVD tower. “Hales, what are you doing? I really don’t want to watch a movie.”

She shot me a look then continued until all of a sudden she found what she was looking for. “Aha, here it is. You can thank me later; I’m just trying to cheer you up.” She winked and then popped the Blu-ray in and pressed play.

When the menu popped up I saw that it was Magic Mike. I tried not to let her see me smile but when she turned on the dance scenes only and it began raining men, every worry I had suddenly left and I was able to smile.
Channing Tatum could dance all day long in front of me and it was like I was a whole new woman.

By the time Channing Tatum was dancing to ‘Pony’, Marcus and Trevor came walking in and started making kissy noises. Halley threw a pillow at Marcus and I actually laughed. A real laugh, it wasn’t forced.
They didn’t stay to finish watching us lust over the TV; they went to the kitchen and began talking band business. I overheard something about Trevor being back for good now that he ditched Taylor. I wondered if Gary were going to give them their spot back at The Lounge.

Speaking of
Gary, I sure hope he hadn’t tried to call my phone yet. He didn’t know anything that happened unless Mom called him. He didn’t even know I had changed my number. Just as I got ready to try to call him, Paul sent me a text asking what I was up to.

I smiled and replied, “Watching the dance scenes of Magic Mike :)”

“Yum :)” I could imagine him sitting there watching it. I figure he was one of the people in the theater that actually cheered at the screen.

Luke’s name caught my attention and Magic Mike didn’t matter anymore. The sadness began washing back over me no matter how hard I tried to keep it away.
At that point not even Matt Bomer could ease my pain. Ugh I hate this so much. I didn’t want to nag him but I just didn’t understand why he couldn’t just hear me out. Why did he have to ignore me?

I stared at his name and then typed, “I love you Luke. With all my heart.”

Nothing.

I let out a sigh and a lone tear fell down my cheek. I can’t believe this is even happening. Maybe I just need to go get my stuff out of the apartment. Would I even be able to go into there without running into him or breaking down?
Probably not. I can’t stand how he affects me differently than everything with Trevor. I’d have to tell Gary. Shit, Gary. I hope Luke hasn’t called him and told him anything. I need to just get over it and call him to make sure he knows everything that is going on. After Gary rescued me from mom, I promised to always tell him what was going on.

Halley started snapping her fingers in my face. “Macy, hello? You with me? You zoned out for a minute.”

“Oh, yeah sorry,” I mumbled before looking at the clock on the wall. “I need to go see Gary. He doesn’t know anything.”

“Do you want me to drive you? I really don’t mind.”

“No, it’s ok. I can do it. Can I uh come back here after?” I know it was Luke’s apartment but I didn’t feel comfortable being there if we were speaking. Even though he may or may not even be there. Where was he though? That’s the part I couldn’t seem to figure out no matter how hard I tried. I didn’t know of any friends he had around here that he would actually stay with.

“You better. I’ll be waiting for you.” She was all smiles and I studied her expression for a split second. She was formulating something and I was not sure I was ready for whatever was up her sleeve. “Go out with me tonight. The wedding is in two days, let’s have some fun.”

“Hales, we both know what happened the last time we went out to have fun. I don’t know.” I lost Luke the last time we went out and all I needed was to accidentally run into him and have him thinking I’m moving on because I’m not. I’m very far from moving on; in fact I may never love again.

“This is totally different Mace. Marcus and Trevor will be there but not for what you think. They won’t even be around us. I’m sure
Gary was going to tell you but the guys talked to him and well they have their spot back. Plus they are going to try to play different areas in town.”

Her hopeful smile was enough to convince me maybe this is what I needed. Plus if Paul were working then it was like a double treat. “Ok I’ll go but if I start feeling uncomfortable I’m gone.”

She threw her arms around me and squealed, “OHMIGOD YAY!! We’re going to have fun like old times ok?”

I nodded my head praying she was right. I left her to fend for herself with the guys as I grabbed my keys and made my way to my car.
I turned the volume as loud as I could stand it and I was able to relax. As I pulled up to The Lounge, I drew in a deep breath aware that he already talked to Mom and knew. I’m pretty sure as soon as she got the call from Ray she tried my phone and since I changed my number, it’s almost common sense that she called Gary and I felt like shit for not telling him sooner. I owed him that much.

I walked straight in and made a beeline for the office. His door was open and as usual he was deep into a game of solitaire. Part of me stood there hoping he wouldn’t see me and I could make my escape.
Slowly I began to back up when he suddenly looked up and frowned. “Macy, come in. I tried to call you earlier and it said the number was no longer in service.”

I swallowed and walked into his office and sat down. I felt like a little kid about to get in trouble even though I had done nothing wrong. “Yeah, I uh changed my number last night. I was coming to tell you.”

He raised his eyebrow and scratched his chin. “Why’d you do that? Problems with Luke?”

Oh, if he only knew. But that was a totally different story even though it did tie into this one. I searched for the words to say so that I wouldn’t break down crying in front of him. I had to be strong and just tell him how it all went down. If he’s talked to Mom he doesn’t show it. He just looks at me waiting for my answer.
I get it, I mean he wants me to be completely honest with him and I want to be.

“Well, we aren’t exactly speaking right now
, I don’t even know if he still wants to marry me. But that’s not why I changed my number. How do I say this?” I could feel the hot tears behind my eyes and I prayed they stayed where they were. “After Halley’s party, I had an issue with Trevor that’s been resolved. Everything is good. I heard they are going to start playing again so you don’t have to worry about me I swear. Luke got mad and hasn’t talked to me since and I had Paul drive me to Mom’s---“

His eyes looked up from the computer as if I just spoke Japanese. I thought about pretending I never said anything and leaving. This was bound to be a mistake, but then I was pretty good at making those.

“I stayed there until last night. We had the most amazing day together but she lied again. She went to work and Ray came home and tried to attack me. I dialed 911 and they came and got him. I called Halley and she brought me home.”

His vein in his neck looked like it
was going to pop. His face was beet red and he began to reach for his phone. “Dammit. Macy, thank God you called. He didn’t do anything did he? You better not lie. He isn’t getting away with anything anymore. That woman doesn’t have a damn lick of sense.”

“Uncle Gary, no. I punched him in the face. I’m done. I’ve said it before but I am. That’s why I changed my number.”

“Why didn’t you come to me Macy? You could have stayed at my house instead of going to her.”

“I, I don’t know. I just thought things were different this time.” I really did think they were and we saw what happened with that.

“I’m glad you’re safe and I hope he stays his ass in jail.” He got up and gave me a hug. I hugged him back holding onto the only man in my life that hasn’t hurt me or left me hanging. I honestly don’t know what I would do without this man in my life. Every part of a breath I was holding was let out. I could breathe again. My heart had stopped racing and I didn’t feel as if a heart attack were happening to me.

“Me too. I’ll be here tonight with Halley. I need a night to get away from all this shit that’s happened.”

“Come and have fun. You sure Trevor here isn’t going to bother you?” He looked up at me with a father’s concern in his eyes. That was a look only Gary could give me and I knew that if I told him having Trevor here would bother me that he wouldn’t waste two seconds calling him to say don’t come play. Gary would do that just for me.

For once I could smile and be completely honest about Trevor.
It really baffled me every time I thought about it. “Not at all. We’ve mended our fences.”

We sat around
talking for a few more minutes. It felt good to hold a conversation and be able to genuinely smile. He told me about Paul and how he decided to hire him on a whim. I thought to myself that I’ll be sure to thank him for that later. Without Paul, I don’t know where I would have gone. I looked up and noticed the time. I decided I better head back to Halley’s. We could get ready together like old times. I texted Paul only to find out he was working tonight. Damn. Oh well, it would still be a blast. I replied telling him I couldn’t wait to see him tonight.

I passed by Luke’s apartment to find his car still wasn’t home. I was getting worried about him. I haven’t heard from him and when I would, he would simply say he couldn’t do this. Whatever this was. I just wanted to talk. He also hasn’t been home. As bad as I wanted to go inside the apartment and leave a hand written note or just text him again, I didn’t.
I remembered Sherry telling me how they were so scared when Juliann died. I can’t imagine making him hurt and it tore a little piece of my heart out to even think about it. I didn’t want to be to blame for anything stupid he did. I went back to Halley’s and figured I could decide what to do later.

Chapter 15

Halley was in front of her mirror applying her makeup and running the flat iron through her hair. She had on a pair of black shorts with a silver sequin blouse. For a woman getting married in two days, her shorts were awfully short. They looked even shorter when she put her three inch heels on. She must be wearing them to get used to heels for the wedding. That’s the only way I could wear something like that. I can’t walk in the things though; it’s nothing but disaster waiting to happen.

I pinned my hair half back like I normally did and pulled out my faithful blue
jean skirt. I almost forgot I had left this thing when I moved in with Luke. The skirt probably should have fallen apart by now, that’s how old it was. I loved it though; it was like a source of comfort. All my wild and crazy nights, even the ones filled with love or heartbreak were inside that skirt. I wished I had grabbed that blouse Mom bought me before I left, but oh well. Halley had my green fitted t-shirt in her closet and I pulled it out and put that on. She has a habit of borrowing clothes and not returning them. Matter of fact, I saw several blouses of mine and made a mental note to come back and get them later. I borrowed her makeup carefully applying some dark gray eye shadow and her mascara and then I was ready to go.

Marcus and Trevor were already gone so they could set up for their first gig back since he skipped out of town. It was nice to at least see something getting back to normal. And it was sure nice to know I wouldn’t have to dodge my emotions while I was there. I almost didn’t put my phone in my back pocket but I slid it in just in case
Luke called or texted. Miracles can happen.

We pulled up at The Lounge and I immediately noticed Paul’s Cruze parked in the same spot it was that night. An instant smile spread as Halley and I walked into the front doors. The DJ was already set up and the few people that were already inside were dancing.

Paul’s back was turned and he didn’t see me walk up. I couldn’t hide my cheesy grin as I called out, “Hey you, can I get a crown and coke?”