Cowboy Desires: The Complete Collection (7 page)

              About 20 minutes later, he pulled into the driveway of a camp at Pleasant Lake. It was right on the water, and I noticed a large boat tied to the dock. The whole place was breathtaking, and I was impressed.

              “Well, darlin, here we are. I packed us a lunch. Why don’t we go get on the boat. There’s a special spot I want to take you to.”

              He helped me out of the truck and grabbed a picnic basket from the back. He led me down the wooden stairs to the dock and helped me onto the boat.

              Austin was a natural and got everything ready quickly. He started the boat, and we were on our way, speeding across the open water. I was so glad I put my hair up because the wind was whipping through it. I sat back and enjoyed the sun on my bare shoulders. After a few minutes, we came to a small, secluded spot off the side with no camps on it. He maneuvered the boat in and turned off the engine. Then he let the anchor fall into the water to keep us from floating away.

              “This is beautiful. Thank you for bringing me here.”

              “A beautiful place for an even more beautiful lady. I wanted to take you somewhere away from the distractions of other people. I want to know you, Jamie. I haven’t been able to stop thinking of you.”

              “I feel the same way. What did you bring for us? I’m so hungry!”

              He reached into the basket and pulled out two turkey sandwiches, grapes, crackers, and strawberries. He also had some beer and water. He set it all up on the seat between us, and we both dug right in. It was delicious. The beer tasted great with the simple food. He reached over and put a strawberry to my lips. I took a slow bite, letting him enjoy watching me.

              “You’re a sight, baby. Everything you do is sexy and sweet all at once. Even watching you drink a beer turns me on. Your bare shoulders look so great today. I just love looking at you.”

              “The feeling is mutual. Watching you get the boat ready showed off just about every muscle in your body.”

              I reached over and touched his bicep, and he flexed it, making me laugh. I ran my nail up and down his arm, then down his chest to his stomach. I was getting turned on and a little buzzed from the mixture of beer and sun. I was feeling brave, so I leaned in and kissed him softly on the lips.

              Austin kissed me back hungrily, letting me know he had the same thing on his mind. I broke the kiss and got on my knees in front of him. My hands made quick work of his belt, button, and zipper. Then I reached inside without any protests from him and pulled his fully erect cock out.

              I immediately covered the head with my mouth, sucking hard while I stroked the base with one of my hands. He was moaning in approval as I moved my mouth up and down quickly, devouring his cock. When I let it go all the way to the back of my throat, I could tell he was pleased with my lack of a gag reflex.

              “What has gotten into you today, darlin? Your mouth feels fucking amazing. I love watching you taste my meat.”

              I looked up and smiled at him with his cock still in my mouth.

              Then I started to suck harder and faster, causing his hips to come up off the seat. After a few minutes of this, he pulled me up by the arms and unbuttoned my pants. He pulled them down along with my boy shorts and got me onto his lap so I was straddling him.

              He expertly guided the tip of his throbbing member to the opening of my sex. I was soaking wet from the reaction I got to sucking him. I slid down onto his tool slowly, loving the feeling of every thick inch of him pushing into my depths. His hands went to my ass and guided me up and down, staring into my eyes as he did it.

              “Aw baby. Your pussy feels so tight and wet. I love how you took control of me. I want to be inside you every day. I want to fuck you until we’re both exhausted. I love every inch of your beautiful body.”

              I could barely concentrate on his words as he began to hit all of the right places inside of me. He pulled my tube top down, along with the bra, and started sucking on my nipple as they bounced in his face.

              I took over and start to grind in slow, circular motions on him. My hand reached down to rub sweet circles on my throbbing clit. Everything about this moment was perfect. It was almost as if it was straight out of a fantasy. Here was this perfect man, allowing me to have my way with him in a boat on a beautiful lake. He was making me feel crazy things, and I had only known him for three days.

              As I grinded and rubbed, and he licked and sucked my nipples, I felt myself moaning. I was getting loud, and I didn’t care who heard me. He wasn’t holding back either when he threw his head back and said my name over and over. I leaned in and kissed him, winding my tongue up with his.

              My release came suddenly, and it was so powerful that I had to hold onto Austin. I had just let him see me lose complete control over myself, and I didn’t care. When I was finished, he held me by the hips and moved his cock up into me. His pace was hurried, so I knew he was ready to fill me. When he came, he gripped my hips hard and yelled my name. I kissed his neck and encouraged him, telling him how much I wanted his cum in me.

              When we were both done, I stayed there on his lap while we came back down. We were both half dressed and sweaty, and we were both smiling.

              “How did I get so lucky, baby? That was the best sex I have ever had. I don’t even care if everyone on this lake heard or saw us.”

              “I don’t care either. You know exactly what to do to make me crazy. This whole thing is crazy.”

              We heard a sound and looked up to find another boat on the other side of the lake. I quickly pulled up my shirt and bra and got off his lap. He placed himself back inside his shorts while I put my pants back on. I forgot to put my boy shorts back on, and he got to them before I did.

              “My souvenir. I hope you don’t mind.”

              He winked at me as he put them in his pocket.

              “Not at all. As long as you don’t show them to anyone else.”

              I laughed and pretended to hit him. We each had some water before he took us back out for a long ride around the lake. I sat next to him and held his hand, enjoying the day for what it was. There were some spectacular homes on the lake, and I dreamed of living in one of them and forgetting the rest of the world.

              “Sometimes I think about moving out here and living a simpler life with someone I love. Or maybe just getting a summer place. I could have a great time with Jackson, and you could do lots of sun bathing. It sounds crazy, but I can already see a future with you, Jamie.”

              “It’s not that crazy because I have been thinking the same thing. I’ve never felt a connection to someone so fast. But I’m also afraid to let myself fall. I don’t ever want to go through what I went through with Mason again.”

              “I would never do that to you. I have a feeling there’s more to the story, but I know you’ll tell me when you’re ready. I just want to see you as much as possible. I want to know you. I will take whatever you’re willing to give.”

              “I’m willing to go slow. Though we haven’t gone slowly in terms of sex, huh? I just can’t help but touch you. I can’t control myself!”

              “Obviously, I can’t either. But I didn’t bring you out here with any intentions today. I would be happy to just spend time with you. I hope you know that.”

              “I do know that. But I will guard my heart carefully, Austin. You might be in for quite a ride. Are you sure you’re up for it? I can’t make you any promises.”

              “I will be here waiting when you are ready. I will let you cry to me. I will make you feel special every day.”

              “I can deal with that.”

              A few minutes later, we pulled back up to the dock. He helped me out and got the boat situated. We sat on a picnic table out in front of the camp and talked for another hour about our lives, but I never mentioned what happened with Mason. I didn’t want to ruin the moment.

              On the ride home, he took me for ice cream at one of his favorite spots. This, of course, made him think of eating the ice cream off of my body again. We laughed and cuddled while we fed each other ice cream. It was another perfect moment. It couldn’t be this perfect. There had to be something I didn’t know about him or someone out there that was going to ruin what we had started.

              I felt myself getting a little sad as we made our way back to my house. I didn’t want the day to end. I didn’t want to go back to my reality. I didn’t want to deal with any other complications. I sat in the middle with my head on his shoulder, listening to his heart beat and letting it soothe me. When we got close to my house, I sat up. I looked in the mirror to make sure I didn’t look like too much of a mess.

              I was still looking in the mirror when he pulled into my driveway, so I didn’t see anything out of the ordinary.

              “What the fuck?”

              “What? What’s wrong?” I flipped up the mirror and only then was I able to see what he saw.

              Mason was sitting on my front steps with a big bouquet of red roses in his hands. He looked pissed as he stood up to take a look inside the truck. I looked over at Austin and he had the exact same look on his face.

              It looked like I had some introductions to make and some serious explaining to do. I was screwed.

*****

~Vol. 3 – Reality Strikes~

I knew this would happen eventually, but I wasn’t expecting it so soon. When Mason said he would give me time, I didn’t think that meant showing up at my house the next day unannounced with flowers. And I hadn’t even told Austin that Mason was back or that he had been at my house begging for my forgiveness.              

Now the two men that I cared about and couldn’t choose between were going to meet, and I was shaking from worry about the unknown. Would Mason be able to tell that Austin and I had just had sex? Would he feel betrayed because I had just been with him the night before? What would Austin say to Mason after all the things I had shared with him? He saved me when I had pulled over on the side of the road and sobbed until I could barely breathe. It wasn’t going to be pretty, but I had no choice but to deal with this right now.

I got out of the truck on my own instead of waiting for Austin this time. I immediately walked over to the steps to talk to Mason. Austin got out after me and followed me to where Mason sat.

“Hi Mason. I didn’t expect to see you here.”

His angry expression didn’t soften at all.

“Jamie, who the hell is this guy? Where have you been? I’ve been waiting here for you for over an hour.”

His tone was full of annoyance, and his free fist was clenched. I had seen this look before. It was hard to talk him down when he was this high on adrenaline and anger.

“This is Austin, and we were out on a date to the lake. I didn’t know you were planning to stop by.”

By this time, Austin had made his way to my side and was hovering over me protectively.

“That’s me. Austin. Nice to meet you, Mason. I’ve heard
so
much about you.”

He was so sarcastic when he said this that I cringed. That was not going to go over well.

“Yeah, well, I’ve barely heard anything about you. You can’t mean that much to her. You must know that Jamie and I have been in love for a long time.”

“I also know that you broke her heart and deserted her. I’m here, ready and willing, to pick up the pieces. I’m gonna make her so happy that she’ll just forget about you. I’m gonna make her feel loved again. She does nothing but smile when she’s with me.”

Mason dropped the flowers on the steps and stood up.

The two men that I cared about stood almost face to face with me in between them. They both towered over me, so if they decided to fight, I was out of luck. This couldn’t be pretty. When you put two men together that both want the same woman, it was a battle of who was stronger, smarter, richer, and a better lover. I had felt and tasted what they both had to offer, and they were equally talented in their own ways. I had never wanted it to come to this, however.

I had loved Mason for so long, but he had only showed me that he would run when times got tough. Austin had already spoiled me and showed me what a life with him could be like, but he also had another woman in his life that would never go away because of their child.

“You don’t know shit about what really happened! Don’t you dare stand here and judge me for something I did. She’s only known you for a couple of days, so I guarantee you have some secrets. If she wants to be blind to them, then I will find them out. I’m not letting her go, man.”

As much as I loved to hear him say this, I was not ready to just fall back into his arms. And I wasn’t ready to walk away from Austin, either. He made me feel alive after over a year of feeling dead inside. That was something special that I couldn’t just turn my back on.

“Well, I’m not giving her up. I just met her, but she already has a hold on my heart. How you were stupid enough to walk away from her is beyond me. You must have some serious issues to work through. I’m not leaving unless she tells me it’s over.”

I knew it was time for me to speak up.

“Alright, you can both stop right now. I didn’t expect to have either one of you in my life, and I’m all confused. Mason, I love you for everything we shared. Austin, you have helped me start to heal and made me feel happy again. I care about you both very much, and I don’t think I can tell either one of you to walk away right now. If you can’t handle this, then you know you can go at any time. I need time to figure out what I want. It’s not fair to any of us, but it’s the truth, and it’s the way it has to be.”

They were both still standing tall with their eyes fixed on each other. Neither one was backing down.

“Jamie, I’m never leaving you again. I want you back. I want to marry you and start our family. I was so fucking stupid, but now I’m begging for you. I know better now. You are the only one for me. Please say you’ll be with me.”

Mason’s eyes finally left Austin and focused on me, and I could see the desperation in them. My attention was quickly shifted to Austin when he spoke up and placed a hand gently on my arm.

“Jamie, I know we don’t have a history. We’ve only had three days. But I would be an idiot if I gave up now. What we shared on the lake today was amazing. I want to know you. Please give me a chance to show you that I am the man who can make you happy.”

He looked so sincere, but I didn’t have long to think about it before Mason was around me and chest to chest with Austin.

“Don’t fucking touch her! She’s mine and you need to just walk away. I will mess you up if you touch her in front of me again! You have no right to be here!”

“The hell I don’t, boy! I have more of a right than you do since you left her. You fucked up! You made her cry! All I’ve done is make her smile. I’m ready to fight for her if I have to, but I suggest you take a step back before I make you do it!”

As soon as his last words came out, Mason reached out and shoved Austin across the lawn. Austin recovered quickly and came barreling at him. They were on the ground, and Austin punched Mason in the face.

I ran to them, trying to pry them off each other. Mason turned them over and landed a blow to Austin’s left eye. I had had enough, so I started screaming as I attempted to pull Mason off of Austin.

“Stop! Stop fighting! This is ridiculous! The neighbors are gonna call the cops! Will you two act like grown men before I send you both packing?”

This seemed to get their attention, so the next time I pulled on Mason’s shoulders, he backed away. There was blood coming from his lip, and Austin’s eye was already swelling. They were both out of breath and shaking with rage. I couldn’t believe it had come to blows this quickly.

“You both need to leave. Right now. I’m so angry with both of you for letting it get that far. I don’t want you fighting over me. I know this is partly my fault because I didn’t tell Austin that you were back, but how was I supposed to know that you wouldn’t just leave again, Mason? And Mason, I have every right to date Austin if I want. We weren’t just on a break. You left. For more than a year! I need to some time to sort through all of this, and I hope you can both give that to me. You can contact me on the phone, but I’m not making any promises to see either one of you. Please don’t show up here unannounced.”

I was shaking as I said this because I was still upset from watching them fight. I also had tears of frustration in my eyes. Austin finally broke the silence.

“Fine. I’ll go. But I’m not giving up. Not even close. Thank you for a wonderful time today, and for my souvenir. I’ll be in touch, beautiful.”

He leaned in and kissed me softly on the lips and walked to his truck without looking back. Mason gave him a look that screamed hatred and jealousy. As soon as his truck was out of sight, Mason had his turn to speak.

“I can’t believe you just let him kiss you in front of me. I have never felt so crushed by you. Why didn’t you just tell him that you want to be with me?”

The look on his face had changed from anger to hurt.

“I already explained that. I can’t trust you with my heart yet. I would be a fool to just fall back into your arms like nothing ever happened. And Austin deserves a chance. He started seeing me before I had any idea you were coming back. I like him. I can’t just let that go.”

“I know I fucked up. I fucked up so badly. But I can’t live without you. No other woman will ever mean half of what you do to me. I was scared and sad, so I left, and I can’t ever tell you I’m sorry enough. I should have stayed and held you in my arms. I should have been the one to put all of your pieces back together, but I couldn’t even do it for myself. I wanted her so bad, you know. I wanted you both more than anything.”

Tears had formed in his eyes again, and they were already falling down my face.

“I wanted her, too. But you should have stayed. I don’t know if my heart will ever be ready for another round with you, Mason. I still love you so much, but I don’t know what will happen to us. You need to let me figure it out on my own.

“I know, but it’s so hard to stay away. I love you so much. But I will try. You deserve to have everything you want. I’ll go, but I’ll be calling and texting you. And I’m always here if you need me.”

He leaned in for a kiss, but his was deeper and lingered a bit longer than Austin’s had. It was full of sadness, longing, and passion, and it was hard for me to pull away. I could taste a hint of blood from where Austin had hit him.

When he broke the kiss, he made his way out onto the street and into his truck. When he fired it up and put it in drive, he looked at me and waved. I could see that his face was wet with tears. My heart broke a little, and I wanted to call him back, but I stopped myself. It wouldn’t be fair to either one of us.

When he was gone, I made my way into the house slowly. I went to my room and changed into pajama shorts and a tank top and put some underwear on. Mason would have really flipped if he knew exactly what the souvenir that Austin had was. As I was heading back downstairs, my phone rang.

“Hello?”

“Jamie, I’m out front. I drove by a few minutes ago, and I swear I saw Mason’s truck. Was he there again?”

It was my sister Erin. Of course she had driven by at the right moment to see Mason’s truck.

“Yes, it was his truck. Just showed up here unannounced. He was here again when I got back from my date at the lake with Austin.”

“Shit! I bet that went over well.”

“It ended with the two of them rolling around on the ground. One walked away with a black eye and one with a bloody lip. I told them they both had to leave because I wasn’t ready to choose.”

“You filthy skank! Now you have men fighting over you? You must feel like hot shit right now.”

She was snickering on the other end of the line. She told me she was hanging up and coming in to my place to talk about it before I even had a chance to reply. She was in the house before I even got into the living room.

“I absolutely do not feel like hot shit. I feel awful. I feel torn. I go from being completely alone for over a year to having two men rolling around on the ground fighting over me. It is not as great as it sounds. I have no idea what the hell I’m gonna do!”

I plopped down on the couch as Erin disappeared into my kitchen. She returned with a half-gallon of cookie dough ice cream and two spoons.

“Well, problems like this require lots of ice cream and a great big sister. I have to live vicariously through you since I’m taken. So what are you gonna do now?”

“I’m going to concentrate on work and getting myself to a good place. I’m going to choose when each of them gets to see me. I’m going to figure this out on my terms. When one of them messes up, I’ll know that he isn’t the one for me.”

“But that’s not really fair, Jamie. You can’t punish a guy for messing up once. Especially if it’s only a little mistake. You need to think really hard about which one of them you can trust. Which one of them can make you happy for the rest of your life? Which one can you walk away from without any doubts or regrets?”

“That’s easier said than done. I have no idea how I will make that decision. I just need time. Mason needs to work for my trust, and Austin needs to win my heart. Whoever can accomplish those tasks is the right one for me.”

We sat there and talked, eating the ice cream until it was gone. She always knew exactly what to say to make me think and make me laugh. I was so lucky to have her. At about 7:00, she headed out to go home to her boyfriend, Dave. I did some cleaning around the house since I hadn’t been home much that weekend. I did all my laundry, loaded the dishwasher, and vacuumed every room. It kept my mind off of the things I didn’t want to think about.

Since I had to get up early and write the next morning, I headed to bed around 9:00. I turned on my favorite Sunday night shows in my bedroom. When I finally settled in for the night, I checked my cell phone. There were eight text messages waiting for me. Five of them were from Mason and three were from Austin. Mason’s made me upset again as soon as I read the first one.

Baby, please don’t be mad at me. You are everything to me, and I can’t stand the sight of another man loving you. I love you with everything I am.

Jamie, there wasn’t a second that went by when I was gone that I wasn’t thinking of you and the baby. I wanted the life we were getting ready to have so much. I didn’t know I wanted to be a father until I met you.

I’m sitting here looking at old pictures of us and reading notes you wrote to me. Remember the night we went to the drive-in and did everything but watch the movie? I remember every moment.